160909 - out of difficulties, make miracles!!!

tomolo goin to have chem test... plan not sleep for to9.. coz i haven finish study yet... i wish i can like sylvia dun come to college... but i cant do it... coz i know that i cant lazy d... coz no more time to prepare for coming A2...

so just study as much as i can finish la... just dun regret myself then ok d... lolx...

today morning i study in library for almost 2 hrs... coz having stat test today... then after that i went concourse join sylvia them... when v reach there v like just non-stop talking... v saw a pretty gal... actually a staff for a prmotion booth in inti concourse... lol... she look like mix... but abit old... lolx... then her leg damn muscular man!!! haha... but overall is a leng lui la... but she din come do survey wit me... sad... lolx...

stat test damn bull shit man... i messed up all the formulae... i cant do it well... haiz... mayb not enough sleep n not well prepared gua... fortunately this is the last test for stat... next coming wed v have to sit for math test summore... haiz... sien ah!!!

nid to start study jor!!! nitezzz dude...

不在场-- s.H.e

阳光透过了纱窗
空气微尘飞扬
暑假空了一半散
落照片几张
回忆被你占满
但你不在场

为何要到悲伤才想你的肩膀
但你却不在场
为何我的坚强会瞬间瘫痪
爱为何不在场

自尊是一个战场
让我们都受伤
明明才爱到一半
感觉已经变酸
寂寞大得空旷
因你不在场

为何要到悲伤才想你的肩膀
但你已不在场
为何我的坚强会瞬间瘫痪
爱为何不在场
为何要到无望再拒绝遗忘(不要遗忘)
但是你却不在场
为何我的遗憾总是割不断
爱为何不在场

oh!为何话说那么满
让爱情百孔千疮进退两难
oh!为何我会失去方向
莫非
只因为你不在场...

160909

today like nth special... slept until 12pm++ then on9 watching DIE AGAIN... then went to buy my brunch... then on9 n FB-ing... lolx...

i keep on persua myself to start revision for stat... but my ENJIN still cant start...
then take a short nap... after that when to pasar malam wit my mum...

after that i drove to s.wang there fetch my bro back home... abt 9pm++ i just start study... damn pening when looking to my notes... although my writing nice la... haha

that's my day... hope tomolo exam do well la... haha

nitezzz dude!!

6th day

today din get yr msg oso... mayb u r still busy wit yr stuff... i wont disturb u... coz i scare i will make u feel irritating...

nite...

年度之歌

全年度有几多首歌
给天天的播
给你最愉快的消磨
流行是一首窝心的歌
突然间说过就过
谁曾是你这一首歌
你记不清楚
我看着你离座
真高兴给你爱护过
根本你不欠我甚麽

140909

finally i attend math class today... since i last week skip math class< whole week class> haha... today when i face him i felt very paise lo... haha... dunno y i felt like he oledi fed up to me... when he checking ppl hw... he din come n check mine... haiz... sien la... i finish his hw this time... but nvm la... start on this week will have a good change for myself...

today class until 10am only... just 2 hrs class... then just keep copying notes... today just 9 persons attend only... blackies all din come... lol...

after class... i back home n sleep... i really feel very tired... coz last nite slept at 3am++... i lying on my bed... accidentally fall asleep... then i very blur... tot that i'm talking on phone... then keep on talking when i'm sleeping... damn funny... mayb u all dunno wat i wrote abt... lolx... sorry la... coz my english very bad...

whole day just ate 1 meal only leh... but din feel hungry la... coz it was dinner... so still ok la... after wake up, i feel very guilty coz the exam is coming soon but my notes still incomplete... so i immediately woke up n UPDATE my note... haha... after finished then on9 to play games...

now... PLAN to start my revision d... haha...

130909

today is a meaningless day... coz whole day is doin nth... haha
slept at 5am... then woke up at 1300... then watching tv whole day... lolx
wat da relaxing day in karak... lolx

at 2030... back kl with my mum... then go to eat pan mee again... lolx... at nite start doin my stat past yr... coz tomolo nid to discuss... coz i dun wan to skip class anymore... although i said it on last week... lolx... but i just finished 5 question then fed up jor... coz chapter 2 is long chapter... lazy to refer notes... haha...

then just now my frenz called me n talk alot abt the < money n u> stuff to me... then i just FUYAN him only... haha... coz he just back from the course...so it's ok la... he oledi talked more than 1.5 hr abt the course... haha

now!!! wan to sleep d... it's d 2.48am < 140909 >...

p/s>> for the T-music FESTIVAL event... will update shortly... stay tuned!!! lolx...



niteZzzz

突然想爱你 --- 许茹芸

爱到极度疯狂
爱到心都溃乏
爱到让空气中有你没你都不一样
爱到极度疯枉
爱到无法想像
爱到像狂风吹落的风筝
失去了方向

3rd 4th 5th day

this few days oso din get yr msg...
i know u r busy to settle down yr things...
must take care k?
miss u...

friday 110909

today skip class again... coz yesterday nite received sylvia's call... she said dun wan go for stat class... coz v oso din finished the past year questions.. lolx

morning when i wake up i received lily msg n missed call... she told me that stat class is cancelled... lolx... it was 1030 when i read the msg... coz i tot that first class was stat class... haha

then today i sae lily on Fb... then i ask her y din go class... <11am sth> then she replied the stat class cancelled d... actually i tot 11am is che class... then i jor... really feel guilty whole week din go for math class... haha

then today i received my aunty call... haha... she told me that she has the extra concert ticket < T_MUSIC FESTival>... lolx... then i get 2 tickets from her... but U not here to watch it wit me...

but i facing the prob for tomolo concert, coz my mum need to back karak... actually no prob de... but she said have to fetch my aunty < father side> ... she very mafan lo... ask us to fetch her at the genting skyway... then need to wait her finish work first summore... F*... take bus la... always bring trouble to us... haha... my mum oso complaint her... she said if tomolo my aunt din call her then she pretend forget wo... dunno leh... anything have to depend wat happen tomolo lo... haha

today mood quite good... if u read my blog u will know la...

nitezz everyone... haha...

留低锁匙

我觉得太迟
已经吵过太多次
人不能修补某些事
是你太像孩子

记得相爱时
我想怎麽你总可以
情意地送赠我锁匙
让每日恋人多相处

留低这串锁匙
回归这叠情书
原你收起那往日的好意
从此终止
如今这串锁匙
能怎用亦难知
无法开启你我内心的事
真是很讽刺

2nd day

today i just receive one of yr msg

< dear, i miss u so much... i still cant adapt myself here... hope u beside me... lolx... miss u much...>

when i receive this msg... i felt very happy... coz i still in heart accompany u... love u too...

v try to adapt the environment k? muckx...

thx god!!!

失落沙洲

我不是一定要你回来
只是当又一个人看海
回头才发现你不在
留下我迂回的徘徊
我不是一定要你回来
只是当又把回忆翻开
除了你之外的空白
还有谁能来教我爱

1st day

today is the first day u leave me... feel that everything like uneasy... mayb i just not used to it... but since i promise u, i will try my best to adapt myself... k?

today i totally no mood to study... my mind is full of u... dunno y... when u beside me, there is no such feeling... but when v r far apart, i feel that quite lonely...
dear... i really hope that u remember wat v had promised each others...

take care yrself... always love u n miss u here... muckz... >.<

moody 090909

just back from airport... no mood to school...
before
me <--> u
now
me<------------------------------->u

爱疯了

我爱疯了
我疯到自己痛也不晓得
放弃了保护自己的责任
放弃了抵抗脆弱的天份
我不管了
我不管这伤口能不能愈合
选择了你也许是错的人
选择包容了你的不安分
我尊重我的 选择

我想我 疯了

1 more day ----> 090909

today feel that no mood to study... when i enter the class... i like totally lost in my mind... but i have to pretend in front of ppl... coz i dun feel like let anyone know wat happened inside my mind...

today, i went to 1-u wit her... i think this time is last dating v have within coming 2 yrs time... mayb will hv some chance when she come back for vacation... who knows? haha

but today i really enjoy the time to be wit her... haha... v went for a movie then walk around the shopping mall... erm... abt 5sth i sent her back to KDU to settle sth... after v having dinner... i sent her back...

v have some promises between us... i know v r loving each others... i think the the prob in on me... coz i feel that i cant give anything that she want... anyway... dear... i will do my best to give us a good future!!! muackz... love u ...

miss u...

070909---> afternoon

boring... today morning just reach kl's house...
actually plan to sleep de... but i addicted to my network d...
after i on my laptop... i keeping pursue myself to go bed to take rest coz later hv to go kepong jusco pay the electric n water bills...
then keep on surf-ing net until 2pm++
i plan to go to do payment after my nap... but when i lying on the bed i dun feel like wan to sleep... so just wake up n drive to JUSCO...
along the way is jam... F*...

when i reach jusco is abt 2.45pm la... difficult to find parking oh... coz alot of cars
finally settle the parking prob... i go to post office to PLAN to do the payment...
when i reach there i saw alot ppl keeping the post office... sth like got artiste inside the post office... finally i know wat happened...
the post office is crowded... i go to the numbering machine to get my number for posting... my number is 1536
while the current number is 1330... F*... 200++ more ppl to go!!!

after that i go to popular to buy some pens n highlighter...
then after bought the stuff... i saw ALAM in front of the popular... damn ngam leh... then just talk a while then i leave jor... coz really nth to talk wit him...

after that i back to P.O then number to wait still is 200++ so i plan to back home n do the payment at subang tomolo after my class!!!

the malay really very free to come out shopping la...
cause the traffic so jam... pls dun come out if u cant eat... coz after walk walk walk (shopping) u will feel thirsty n hungry... haha!!!

缺席

爱只剩下躯壳
为什么还不放手却拉扯
是我不甘心还是不舍
为何我还在固执的拔河
其实我真的很难过
只是难过都沦为沉默
可能我真的不懂得让你更快乐

我想和你在一起却在你未来缺席
给你的爱那些美丽
已长成藤蔓缠着我的生命
在你的未来缺席
像是一出剧本未完待续
预留伏笔把未完成从容继续
如果还有如果就算瞬间老去毫不犹豫

爱是不是都一样
无论多漫长终究曲终人散
可是我不想因为不敢却步沮丧
然后半途收场
如果还有如果拥抱你不犹豫
能不能将你的样子忘掉
舍不舍得爱让我控制不了
只想要把你拥抱
其实爱上一个人没有解药
我的静脉流着爱陪你到老
原来我还会微笑
我真的想和你在一起却在你未来缺席

countdown ---> 090909

2 more days to go... dunno y today i feel very moody... mayb i'm gonna to separate with her soon... i really not confident to myself... even all my frenz ask me try to maintain it... i wish to... but i really cant think that one day if i break up with her, wat is my feeling... i really hope that the time cant stop in this second... but i know that it's impossible...
watever, v should accept the fate n fact...
work hard XILSOn... belif yrself!!! u can do it!!!

爱一直存在

我知道我的爱一直都会存在
没有你泪停不下来
你知道我依赖多不想say googbye
我痛说不出来
我知道我的爱一直都会存在
没有你快乐都停摆
某一天我期待和你笑的灿烂
回头看爱 都在

summary for de week -31aug-->3sept-

class:
skip tuesday, wednesday(math), thurs... (damn shit... i really hv to b very rajin jor (like lily everyday study)... lolx... cant like this jor... if not i oso dunno how to sit for my exam...)

relationship:
this week feel like more stable... coz almost every nite oso talk in phone... recently less to meet HER coz she is busy-ing prepare her stuff... nvm la... be strong man!!
wednesday nite, v talked almost 3 hours on phone... lolx... until 4sth am... damn tired... caused me cant wake up to attend class on thursday... but nvm la... everything is worth... coz i really enjoy when talk wit HER... love u my dear...

family:
in current, everything is fine... lolx...

- hope start on next week i will hv more concentration on study la... even v far apart, but i will remember wat v had promised each others... will oways miss u... muckx... love u my dear---

掉了

黑色笑靥掉了 雪白眼泪掉了
该出现的所有表情瞬间掉了
瞳孔没有颜色 结了冰的长河
回忆是最可怕的敌人
故事情节掉了 主角对白掉了
该属于剧中的对脚戏也掉了
胸口没有快乐 断了翅的白鸽
不枯萎的藉口全掉了

FREE from P

17 aug

today early morning woke up... haha coz goin to change my p-license... lolx... coz i plan to go to take photo for my new license... abt 8.30am i went to SALTY WET CHUAN shop to take photo... he acts like very pro in photoshooting...
but the product, i really SUCKED!!! i was wasted my RM10 to take the sucked photo...
then 10.00am... i went to another photo-shop to take photo again... not the guy take for me... is the malay woman take for me... i feel like lost of confident wit woman's photoshooting technique... lolx...
capturing few times finally i said OK... but still not satisfied wit it... lolx

when my dad come out, v ride motor to bentong...
it's was damn exciting!!!!
coz my license was expired... so my dad fetching me to bentong by motor... haha
i was very nervous...

actually today i felt that bentong actually not very far la... haha
this was my 2nd ride motor to bentong... first time was when i was 8 or 9... forgotten...
the journey is very risky... lolx

after v settle everything... is my turned to ride the motor back to karak... it's was my first time riding motor from bentong to karak...
feel scary... coz recently alot accident happened...
during my riding time, my dad suddenly asked me speed up... so i force to speed up to 80km/h... swt!!!

fnally v r save abroad karak... really really excited...
i wont ride motor to bentong anymore... coz it's really very dangerous!!!

bad luck!!! bad DAY

dunno y recently i felt that i damn damn damn f*-ing bad luck...

10 aug
AS results released... actually hv to be happy...
morning--->
felt very nervous coz results is gonna to release.. but i think that my result sure very bad one... i hv to pretend i'm not worry abt it... haiz...

evening--->
driving to INTI... on the way, i felt that my heart beat bcome very rapid... haha... mayb my death time is comin soon... when i reach subang, i went to maybank ATM withdraw money for the payment of resit papers... haha <> i wait sylvia in college... i called my frenz... they are were get good results... this make me feel more nervous... finally i walked into a-level office... get the statement from miss rafeah... the results really make me disappointed... i feel like wan to cry... but i cant do it... coz sylvia n niro were bside me... lolx...
after that i decide to register for che n bio (re-sit)... then i left iNTi with my bad results...

when driving home, it's was raining... traffic jam... make me stucked in the traffic... at the T-junction, my car suddenly shaking... wat happened??? it was a motorcycle bang my car... f***
when he saw me come out from my car... he ran away immediately... i was shocked...
the first thing i did, was calling my dad to report to him... then he asked me alot...
2ndly, i was calling my mum... she like nth oso...
then i called my dear... she keep on console me... but i really feel that i'm gonna to get scold soon...
i lying on bed cant fall in asleep... coz i really scared that my mum will scold me... but finally she din'... haha

it's was F* bad day!!!!!